Here are some photos taken at Neds Divine in Sterling during Risa's Birthday Bash! That place was really awesome!
(Me, Cecil, and Brian)
(Cecil, Patrick, and Patrick's GF)
(Cecil, Me, and Risa, my bro's GF)
(Me and Brian, Cecil's BF)
(Cecil and Debbie)
We might be hitting Neds this weekend for more fun. We'll see how it goes. I'm sure it's gonna be fun!
It's been more than two weeks since the last time I got to hang out with Rich, and quite frankly I feel like I am yet again at a point of deserting what he and I started long after two months of knowing him since we met at Freddies on a regular Sunday evening. I know I'm wanting more from him--but I feel I'm getting less than what I anticipated to receive.
Close to a month ago was when he and I had a rather blunt, intense conversation about where we were in our relationship and the big question was where should this rather aggressive acquaintance be. At the time he felt that things were just going too fast than he expected and that he felt it was best that he take a "slow" pill while seeing what develops. He was upfront about it, for which I give him credit, and explained that he had just accepted a promotion within his company, which essentially require him to travel 80% of the time uncontrollably for the next three months. I understood what the situation was and expressed that I would try and take things slow and see where it leads us.
Sure enough he's been traveling back and forth from one state to the other almost every week and there is definitely no stopping and I sure cannot blame him for doing his job! The last time I spoke to him though, however, was yesterday when he finished packing and was about to leave for Lancaster, PA for a five-day training - but he said he will be back on Friday night and will be home for the weekend. He plan to do low-key stuff and try and recuperate from his long week.
But, before all those traveling - being out of town days at at time - took place, he warned me about it, with which he said might make things complex, in terms of getting together, etc. Despite the fact I said I would understand it, I appear to be wanting more to be with him, if possible, everyday...
I stop and ask myself everyday - is this when it's time to let go?
I knew that he'd tied with traveling but I have never expected it to be this overwhelming travel. Quite frankly it's driving me nuts. Why? Because I don't get to see him that much, I sit here and wait until he gets home and hoping he'd be around to see me. I mean really... doesn't that sound pathetic? Yes, it does.
Time and time again I have told myself do I have the godsend patience to deal with this? I want to see him so bad but it's almost impossible because he is never around anymore. But, when he is, he's tied up with something else. Does that send me a message? If you're reading this, do you get the message? Did anyone else get the message, or is it just me? To be honest, his actions are just as clear the sunny blue sky. The message I get is that he's too busy and that he couldn't make time for me anymore. That I can't seem to believe...or is it just me over-reacting? Not sure what to do really, quite frankly. Should I extend my patience for one more week and see what happens? He said that he'd call me mid this week and see how I'm doing. I know I'm pathetic and I admit it - but all I want to do is see him and be with him.
My gut tells me I'm over it! Quit it and end it once and for all. If he wants you, regardless how busy his schedule is, he'd make the time to pick up the phone and make a 5-minute phone call. Don't care if you're brushing your teeth but dial my number and talk to me - a total girl attitude! I understood the whole traveling thing but this is not about his schedule anymore. That point of understanding has already passed. This is now a matter of the interest of wanting to see me again because he wants to and not because he has to because he is being nice.
I know for sure the fine line between genuineness and pity, and if he is hanging out with me for pitysake, well guess what, I can't take it--run with it and stay away! I'm too good for that. I think I'm not gonna try and make plans with him simply because I hate to make the move and be rejected. If he wants to do something, I'd go but he won't see me make the try. I think I'm pretty much done with him, in terms of trying to make connection and staying connected.
All I can say at this point is everything is on his court. I won't try anymore... I'm happy with what I've got: family, friends, work, lifestyle, hobbies, etc. I certainly don't need someone trudging me along for nothing or while trying to figure things out. As said in the movie Soldier's Girl: "Don't use me to figure yourself out!". I'm still young and can find someone who might be in the same position as I am. Obviously Rich and I aren't on the same wavelength and it is emotionally painful to be in that roller-coaster path. I've been there before and I certainly know when to stop.
I've learned to tolerate things over the years and look at them in different perspectives optimistically. However, I'm also smart what to look for, what to watch out for, and what worth keeping to give you the extra umph! in the morning for. Quite frankly, this one isn't worth it! I hope I'm wrong. I'd rather be wrong than right.
Sorry...just venting. I will say this I can't wait to be in San Francisco! Right there might be an opportunity to live a new life. Not sure yet whether I'm ready to leave it all behind...but time can only tell. I shall see what happens next. Anyway, I have a quite a few things I have planned during this week and all the way through this weekend. Enough to keep me occupied. Any suggestions of fun things to do, drop me a line. OK? Thanks!
So this past Friday my two good 'ole friends Jeannie, her beautiful girlfriend Marisol, and I went to Tokyo Japanese Steak House up in Old Town Alexandria, which is conveniently located close to my old job near the water and has a fabulous, flawless view of the Potomac River. We have not been able to hang out lately simply because of our busy lives. We had been wanting to get out and have dinner together - but fortunately we were able to re-connect his past Friday. Jabari was suppose to come but didn't make it. He will catch up some other time. Nevertheless, it was a lot of fun!
We had the opportunity to catch up on things: stuff about work, living situation (they might be moving to Centreville soon, which would be really awesome!), and of course, love life. I didn't have much to share in the love life "department" other than me telling them about me and Rich dating now for over a month. Not too much detail went into that but all I said was that I'm dating this guy and see where it leads us.
They, on the other hand, are very happy with one another. They seem to share different things that they have in common and endlessly explore each other differences. They balance their relationship so much that they not only are girlfriends, but best friends as well. Quite frankly I'm jealous; not because I don't want them to be happy - but I just wish I could find that special person for me as well. It'd be nice but I'm still looking and open to anything. Perhaps in time that person will eventually appear and make connection.
I give them the full credit of being with one another and keeping their real friends close. They are both very outgoing people and they couldn't careless what and how you might be. They believe, and so do I, in real friends that no matter what happens, you stick together. As we always say, friendships aren't perfect either. You meet people, get to know them, and have a good time. We all believe in that. As long as you are aware of your boundaries and respect, I'm sure you get it back.
Anyway, I had an awesome time with them. In two weeks, we're planning to do another dinner. I'm thinking about going to Texas de Brazil (a steakhouse) in Fair Oaks. This place is awesome and I'd love to take them over there and check the place out. I'm sure they will love it.
For the rest of the weekend, I went to Fuego after Friday's dinner, met a few friends there, and drinking and more drinking. Then tonight I went to Freddies to catch up on my drag shows. Ashley Jozet Adams asked me to go check her out tonight so I did, with my friend Gino. Had fun as usual!
Now I'm tired. LOL. I'm ready for bed. This week is going to be crazy for me (yet again!). So have a great work week everyone!
Here are a few pictures we took at Fur Night Club in downtown on 11/1 during their 2008 Halloween Party.
(L to R: d-Jae, Brian, Cecil, Sarah, Risa, and Bro Gilmor)
(Front L to R: Patrick and d-Jae; Back L to R: Risa, Lucky, Cecil, Bro Gilmor, and Sarah)
(L to R: d-Jae, Brian, Cecil, Sarah, Risa, and Bro Gilmor)
(L to R: Bro Gilmor, d-Jae, and Sarah) That's what you call TRASHED!
Hilarious pictures! There's more to come!
This past weekend was one of the fun weekends that I haven’t had in a long time. I wasn’t really expecting it to be that much fun considering all of the events that recently took place at my job: losing someone dear, overwhelming workload, not feeling well, etc. Last week was quite a handful; I initially planned to do something low key throughout the weekend - but it turned out to be one of the best weekends ever!
Saturday morning I went to LifeSpa to get my hair done; got it cut, layered, etc. Looked hawt! Then I went to visit my Mom in Arlington where she works and kind of talked to her for a little bit. Since it was early in the afternoon and I haven’t had lunch yet, I drove to one of my good ‘ole favorite little pizza joint up near Old Town Alexandria and ordered something to eat. Ended up having leftovers so I went back to Mom and dropped off some lunch. She loves Calzone and so do I. She appreciated it - she thought it was really sweet.
You know every once in a while I do that kind of stuff. I like to feed people. I guess it’s one of Filipino traditions; we try and give comfort to anyone, any time at any given place or whatever. I find it very attractive when someone does have that character.
Anyway, I enjoyed lunch alone (which was nice for a change), then I went shopping at Pentagon City. Man, I haven’t shopped in a long time! Recently I’ve been shopping online at 1 or 2 in the morning with all kinds of stuff (I know I have a problem) and I prefer receiving them in the mail as oppose to walking into the store. I find it very convenient, but I have to practice patience. (It’d be nice to get the stuff you bought through the computer, eh?) Knowing d-Jae he sometimes doesn’t have the patience. Anyway, it takes a few days for stuff to arrive, which is not a big deal. I went to Sephora bought some Giorgio Armani cologne and a vest at Club Monaco. I loooove those stores! Certainly my brand. Shopped a little for outfit for clubbing at Fur (I’ll get into that in a sec). Looked hawt! Really hawt! Kind of low-key and yet daring!
Then Mom met me and my brother at Tyson’s Corner for dinner. We went to Neisha (a Thai Restaurant) which is one of our favorite places that we go to as a family other than your regular Coastal Flatts or PF Chang’s. The joint is very relaxing and the food and service is just great. If you haven’t been there, you should check it out. Definitely a place I’d recommend for a date. *wink*
In the spirit of Halloween I went with my brother Gilmore and Risa (his GF), along with 5 other people, to Fur for their Halloween Party. Man, that night was really awesome! Everyone dressed up with their own thing and I reluctantly did not dress up just because I felt my hair was too good for it (LMAO!). One of my friends was gonna show up not dressed up so I thought I wouldn’t so he wouldn’t feel left out. In any way, getting in was as usual crazy; it took us an hour to get i…for $25! Yes, I said $25! Ridiculous! Oh, well but definitely worth it.
So we got in, danced with my Gil and Risa crazy as usual, drank quite a few martinis but managed to still get out of there sober, made some connections, danced with a few stangers (guys). LMAO! Yea, I know. Guys dancing at a straight club/bar? Surprisingly didn’t get stroke by lightning! I guess some of the straight guys weren’t really straight and weren’t making the dance floor hawt enough so I went in there and danced distinctively. I said like come on guys, move those damn feet and shake ‘em asses! Don’t dance like you’re retarded. LMAO! Anyway, the climax of the night was winning $5000 for the best custome. Well, the naked woman impersonating Mystique (from X-Men) won the price. Hawt! (but not my type) but fun though! I give her the credit not giving a shit what people think. I think she should have won more than that - but I think 5 grand should be enough to get the paint off of her.
So that was Saturday! Good times! Good times with my brother for the first time at a club. I’ll try to get him to check out TOWN one of these days. I don’t think he is thrilled about it, but we shall see. We’ll be going back to Fur on either 11/15 or 11/22 to celebrate Risa’s birthday bash. I vote Fur than TOWN (I think!). It’s nice to check out places that you haven’t been in for a change.
Sunday, it was yet another fun and low-key day. I spent the whole day with Rich shopping around at Pentagon City (again!) and chilling out at his condo. We had dinner at his place with a glass of red wine or two. As usual very soothing and comfortable. He always makes sure I was okay (cute!) the whole time. He is traveling (again!) to North Carolina this week but will be back this Friday, and then I think he is off to camping with his friends up in Blue Ridge mountains. We will re-connect once he gets back. I promise that I’d cook him something Italian/Greek (Pasta Carbonara?), serve it with champagne, and desert for later. It’s gonna be good. Looking forward to it!
Here is the thing…Rich and I at this point enjoy each other’s company. Not sure if there will be more than that in the future, but time can only tell whether we want to move up to a different level or not. I want to but I can’t force him if he’s not willing to. For right now I’m going with the flow and see where it leads us. I think that whatever we talked about previously (about his new job and lots of traveling) kind of trudging us along pretty well, and I think him getting the job and traveling so much kind of scare him that I would not date him because of it. I think, it seems it is working just fine so… We shall see how this moves from here on out.
Anyhow that’s the weekend update! This week is yet another busy week for me as I need to produce a 160-page book for our conference. I managed to get 80% of the front and back matter done last week and I’m now working with a designer to lay it out for me so I can review and approve to print. Fun times! I’ll touch base again with you next week! Have a great work week!
